I ...

I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.

Is it over yet, in my head?

I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.

Is it over yet? I can't win.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'm going all the way, get away, please.

[Chorus:]
You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

This will be all over soon.
Pour salt into the open wound.

Is it over yet? Let me in.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'm going all the way, get away, please.

[Chorus:]
You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

[Bridge]
I'm waiting, I'm praying, realize, start hating.

[Chorus:]
You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

Breaking Benjamin - Diary of Jane

If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

No!

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Try to find out what makes you tick.
As I lie down
Sore and sick.
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate.
And I don't mind.
Just let me say that
I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love.
Die for anyone
What have I become?

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.

We had so much fun today.  Even after years after it was first screened on TV, seeing SDTS coming out on Big Screen strikes such and emotional experience for me.  I was very excited and I think the event went great! 

Just having Mabel (the director), Xiang Yun and myself and others around just brought back so much memories.  And even as the questions were posted, it felt like it was just yesterday that we finished filming! :)

So some reason, the movie look better on big screen.. and I thoroughly enjoyed it even after watching it so many times! :)  And I am glad the audience enjoyed it as much as I did!

Xiang Yun and I cried at the scenes again.. which is funny but amazing... lol!

Some pics from the event:

"Talkback" with Director Mabel Gan and casts Xiang Yun and Stephanie Loh (me!).

From left:  Huihui (PM), Mabel (Director), Xiang Yun and Stephanie Loh

Mother and daughter!

From Left:  Huihui (PM), Andrew Millians (Script Consultant), Isaac, Mabel (Director), Xiang Yun and Stephanie Loh.

Thanks for coming to support guys!  It means alot! :)
From Left:  Jae, Stephanie, Clement

After the screening... what's more bonding that a wonderful time eating together! SUPPER!
Tau Huay (Soya Bean Curd) at Geylang... :)

Xiang Yun, Stephanie and Edmund Chen.

Anyway, Sweet Dreams and Turtle Soup will be showing at Sinema (11B Mt. Sophia, B1-12) until 15th February 09.  The dates as follows:

February 8th @ 4:20pm
February 12th @ 6:15pm
February 13th @ 4:20pm
February 15th @ 4:20pm

If you're in Singapore in the next two weeks, do catch it! :)

                                 A classic growing-up story set in Singapore…

"  Sweet Dreams and Turtle Soup tells the coming-of-age story of Sarsi, a sixteen-year-old girl who dreams of a better life away from the family's turtle soup stall. She is obsessed with studying for the approaching O'levels because she believes that doing well in this important exam is her path to happiness. However, her grandmother falls ill and she is forced by her mother to spend even more time working at the stall. As the exams approach, the stress builds up for Sarsi until she resorts to desperate measures that can only spell disaster.  "

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZCD0yEh1D8

Today I let myself get irritated and upset by some random person over the net who doesn't know anything whatsoever about the world.  Ignorance!

Some people think that they know so much about everything when they are actually cooped up in a world they make up to be "THE WORLD" and think they are so learned about life, world, different cultures, religion and countries.

When in fact, all they know is what the see happening no more than in their country, city or town in fact. 

When I took American History and Politics in school, we learnt about Bourgeoseis and the 'wealthy' white people.  Everyone else is slaved, unfit, unworthy to be given a share in anything white.  History has passed... I see humanity as growth, economy expanding, countries investing in each other and the world working hard with each other.  (well, exclude war).  I am not political.  I don't care about left or right wings.  I don't bother about democrats or republicans.  I don't indulge myself to get involved in it.  I just watch it, I know it.. that's it.

But some people, are so densed in their own beliefs.  Christians of that age and Chirstians with that same Bourgeoseis mentality... narrow-minded.  They make me sick.

I'm sorry to say it but they do.  Talk about being godly, and loving God... and talking about being His child.  Yet in an instant, quick to judge, quick to point fingers, quick to stereotype and soooo quick to hate.

A canadian (Sadly)... think she's upper class.  Thinks she holds the keys to life and imposition on others.  Thinks she knows everything about everyone, every culture, every religion.  Imposing her religion on others.  With no one to offend, she is quick to mouth bourgeoseis beliefs and stagmatism on others... expecting that she is right.

How ignorant.  She never got her facts right.  She has NO clue what is out here .. what is OUTSIDE of her small town in Canada.  Ignorance.  Canada and US is not the only countries around... Canada isn't the Only urban place in the world.  Open your eyes and do some research before you think can be so stupid and make yourself out to be a fool amongst people who clearly know more than you.

I don't profess to know alot about the world, but I know enough about it to keep my mouth shut when it's needed, and when to speak up when it's needed.  I know enough about it not to be a fool in front of people and think that my world is the only world.

Because it isn't.  And yours isn't too.  You are nothing but a mindless, 'upper class' white person who thinks nothing of everything and everyone else other than your own.  I beg you to go talk to some wise people who know about the world, who know about the asian culture ... more than you do.  I bet your children probably know more than you do now.. yet I am saddened that they will be influenced by your mentality and beliefs.

You're too narrow-minded to be worth listening to... as you spout our senseless nonsense   You are a Christian who claims to be Godly, who claims to love Him, but you do NOT love his people.  You say every land is His land, and everyone being is His child.  But you do not truly believe that.  You say it because your Bible tells you so.  Much as typical as so many Christians in this world who only knows stuff that the Bible and the pastor tells you about.  If you knew God, you would never be this way.

Your words are worthless.  To me, you are nothing but dirt.  I hope you see beyond your selfish mind.

updates.. ok... erm...

been... busy with wedding..

lotsa stuffs...

erm... had something done to my face... pain. :(

photoshoot on monday, better heal by then... or at least, concealable.

cramps... wat's new? ffs.

erm... bought a new external hard disk for storage.

packed my room, super neat now, so proud of myself.

my hotmail is once again not working on IE.

CNY is coming.  another headache.. plan the party.

my article came out in LOL, yay!

still haven't gotten my certificate.. rather long.. hmm...

thinking about future.. scary.

packing, slowly...

plans may change... but tentatively not.

i need new songs.

also need wedding songs / playlist.

went out with my godson, he's adorable.

celebrated dexter's 5th birthday.

bought sudoku Platinum... real tough but managed quite a few... yay!

i seriously need the gym but i cant go out with this....

i'm hungry again.. what's new!?

i need to buy shoes.. damn!

i need a drink.. tonight at pasir ris park, anyone interested?

Happy New Year!   Happy 2009!

Just wanted to wish everyone a great year ahead and lots of fun to come! :)

I am featured in this week's issue of 8 days... in the Poly Guide 2009... Do grab on or check it out :)  THanks!!